BAH. I am sick enough to be congested and have a terrible headache, but not sick enough to skip out on my everyday duties. I got up early, worked in the office, worked on/finished my thesis proposal, went to physical therapy, and went back to school to finish homework.
Then I promptly stuffed myself to the brim with awesome Mexican food with my honey.
School is stressing me out way too much. It's not the work load, or even the material. It's just that all the deadlines have passed, my advisor is really slow getting back to me, and I just want to get everything submitted and over with. All of the paperwork is a royal pain in my ass. I'm already half way done with my research, do I really still have to do all of this stuff? I wish someone would just make it happen, already.
In other news, I've been trying to restructure all of the bad habits that my brain engages in. Let's refer to it as the 'committee'. The committee decides, often for no apparent or good reason, to turn positive into negative, rational into irrational, calm into chaos, etc etc ad nauseam. Trying to change any of these things takes more effort than (I wonder if) I can make. I feel like taking the time to think about these things once every day, collect myself and enjoy the quiet for a few minutes is so simple, yet unattainable.
There are days when I feel like all I can really handle is reading LOL Cats, and there are days when I feel like I could create an entirely new integrated pest management technique for organic farming.
Bottom line: my life is really good. Even though I go bonkers every once in a while, I have things to look forward to, things to work for, amazing friends and family, a great boyfriend, and two pretty awesome cats. What else really matters?
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