one versus two

I always feel like life is a game of contrast. Things are working against each other, in my mind, between people, priorities, earth. What goes up must come down and will eventually go back up again. My life is only chaotic when I have something important to do, and my parents can only visit when my apartment is a mess.

I suppose my cure for push and pull in the wrong directions is to stop and ponder the small things. The good things. The recession of fall and the advance of spring. Life is much more then papers and statistics and standard error bars when all I want to do is curl into a ball, eat oreos and watch movies.

Life is attitude. Life is trying to fight maturity. Life is embracing all of the good with the bad. Because, not wanting to feel good simply because I don't ever want to feel bad is no way to live.